Wednesday, 24 January 2018

Short story, ‘Journeys’

It was serenely quiet on the island that morning.  No hubbub of comings and goings. No lists of things to be done.  No endless questions with unfathomable answers.  The baggage allowance had been generous this time, especially with an overnight journey.  Here Martin could luxuriate in a bath of nothingness.  Memories of the busy mainland were as foggy as the steam lazily rising from the duvet of suds encasing him as the cold tap delinquently dripped onto his foot.  He knew that this tranquility was all but fleeting and, sometime too soon, the crows, called ‘worry’ and ‘panic’, would come swooping in to peck away at his brain.
Martin had to perform well this evening, what with friends coming for dinner on the mainland.  He actually looked forward to showing them around the new home.  Sarah and he had just finished the building work, and the new kitchen was ready for the big reveal.  That would take up some time, along with the pre-dinner drinks and some small talk.  There was just the main course conversation to worry about really.
Martin wondered what the return baggage allowance would be this time.  Would it be five memories? Ten even?  The trouble was that he always had to allow for lost luggage, as he frequently lost one or more items on these journeys. 
Right now he had to do something.  He couldn’t remember what the ‘something’ was, but he just knew, or maybe felt, deep inside that there was a task required of him, and he needed to complete it.  Island life did this to you.  The air was the same, and the view for that matter.  However, it was somehow like the waiting room on the platform of a provincial railway station.  The train was always delayed and arrived in a rush of noise, smells and hurried activity.  So the waiting was a peaceful but panicked island of unknowns; with all of your worries knitted up into a fog of blurred memories.  There was an air of panic because at any time you may find yourself back at the mainland and completely unprepared for the pressures of tasks and questions.
It wasn’t as though anyone went to the island out of personal choice, or that once there, they wanted desperately to get back to the mainland.  It was simply a place that you could gradually find yourself visiting.  Although, those who steadfastly remained on the mainland did not understand islandersbut they could still be friends.  Some of Martin’s circle had distanced themselves since he started visiting.  He didn’t think any less of them for it though, thinking it best to remain positive and to be the eternal optimist. That took less effort and was better for you after all!  Also, the remaining friends actually admired the positivity; openly commenting on it as an inner strength.  Bless them!
Sarah greeted him with a simple question upon arrival at the mainland; “Have you done what I asked you?”  This was the type of question often asked by mainlanders, in their land of logic and order.  Martin scurried about his brain for an effective answer.  He may have already done what she had requested, or he may not. This was difficult to know as he had no memory of what he had been asked to do, and he searched for the least fraught path forward.
Since he had become an islander, there had been extra pressure and worry for Sarah, constantly living on the mainland with the troubles of daily grind to deal with.  He loved her dearly and strived to reduce any added burden put upon her, given the opportunity.
Finally Martin settled for an amiable,Probably my love, what was it again?” Thankfully the task was only to set the table ready for this evenings guests.  An easy job,that would give him time to acclimatize to mainland life again before they arrived.  She turned on the food blender and returned to the meal preparation with a sigh. Martin made a swift exit to the dining room and busied himself.
Table set, candles lit, music on, heating just right.  Now Martin felt ready to be the winning host and supportive, loving husband.  He was naturally all of these things and knew that he could perform well this evening.  He kissed her on the cheek just as the doorbell rang.  The stage was set and all the players were ready.
In they rushed, all wine and flowers;greetings and coats to be hung up.  Compliments on how Sarah looked, indeed she was beautiful this evening.  There were some comments on the smell of cooking, and how wonderful the house was looking.  Martin offered to show them around, give them the ‘grand tour’, thinking that it would eat up some time and give Sarah an opportunity to finish the starter.  However,they were all looking back at him with confused, yet caring, frowning expressions as Sarah gently reminded him that they had already been to the house recently.  Martin laughed off his mistake and shakily busied himself with the preparations of the welcome drinks; gin and tonics all round, thankfully.
Soon enough, all four of them were sat at the table and Martin relaxed into the social game of ‘friends to dinner’, which he still knew how to play.  The starter covered their journey to the house, the weather, sons and daughters and (of course) how lovely the food was.  Martin topped up the wine glasses and cleared the plates into the kitchen for a breather.  He was cooking scallops and chorizo risotto for main course.  Everyone always enjoyed that, plus it gave Sarah a break and chance to catch up with friends.  Having already prepared the risotto, he just had to fry off the scallops and serve up.  He could do that.  He knew that one day there would be so little luggage left that he wouldn’t be able to do this at all.  But for now he was the ‘risotto king’ and all was well with the world.
He swept into the dining room theatrically with wonderfully presented plates.  He had placed their three large scallops onto slices of fried chorizo and dotted them around the edge of the risotto, which was garnished with grated Parmesanand fresh basil.  There were ‘oohs!’ and ‘aahs!’ and ‘lovelys!’ exchanged while Martin opened a fresh bottle of wine and kept things going.  He caught Sarah looking at him over the candles in that loving way that never seemed to burn out.  This was an OK day indeed.
The conversation turned to work life, as it invariably did.  So many people defined themselves by what their job was because it took up so much of their life and funded everything they did.
 No harm in that’, thought Martin, ‘Good on them.’  Nevertheless, when the questions about work came round to him, he had no direct answer for them.  The job had finished because he had come to the end of a fixed term contract; so that’s what he said.  Sarah coughed and moved onto another subjectsmoothly, and he was saved from further explanations. He was no longer able to work, and both of them were still coming to terms with the fact that life was, from now on, analtered state of affairs.  The financial and mental adjustment was catastrophic and would take some getting used to.  However, the simple truth was, he had insufficient luggage left to perform well in a job now.  He had already experienced the painful transition from the boardroom, to part time manager, to unemployed; or should he say unemployable even?  Nonetheless, they were both still smiling and positive, always seeking out the best in people and life.  This is what kept them going, kept them together, and kept them loving each other, forever.  This is what their remaining ‘true’ friends saw and admired.  Others had drifted away, now that he was of no use to them on a business or social level.  Those who had stayed enjoyed basking in the reflected glory of a happy, optimistic and loving couple. They always departed in a better frame of mind thanwhen they had arrived.  Martin loved that, and she loved him for it.
After dessert, he prepared double espressos for everyone and served them witha liqueur and a chocolate from the box they kindly brought to dinner.  This was an excellent finale to a reasonably successful evening.  There had been one or two holes in his memory causing the occasional falter in conversation, but Sarah had elegantly moved things along and made light of it.
There were promises of, ‘Must meet up again soon!’
‘Really enjoyed it!’ 
‘You’re both looking so well! along with kisses and hugs. 
Then, in a waft of cold night air, they were gone.  He installed Sarah in the armchair with tea and the late night news while he clattered and cleared everything away into the dishwasher.  She was looking slightly worried, and tired, while he was happy and celebrating the evening as a task well done.  He hoped that the evening wouldn’t be lost in the baggage handling during the next trip,as this was one to remember.
It was one of those restless nights; one where he was so tired that he couldn’t get off to sleep.  Not wanting to disturb her by fidgeting and changing positions endlessly,he decided to focus his mind.  He found this exercise to be an excellent way of falling asleep on difficult nights. Just cast your mind back to a happy event and relive it through your mind’s eye.  Before you knew it, the morning had arrived and sleep’s draught had been quaffed deeply.  Although Martin had not enjoyed a happy childhood, he had chosen to recall it as a photo album.  Those sorts of family albums never contained the sad or violent events, only the days out and celebrations.  So, this is how he chose to piece together those years in the 1960’s, a series of happy moments, blocking out the sad times and forming a pleasant tapestry of visits, birthdays and adventures.
He focused upon Granddad, a favorite photo, and immediately thought of the starched white shirt with long sleeves held back by strange silver elasticated bands.  The hair slicked back with cream just like a film star, and then the smells.  Yes, he had the most horrendous foot odour known to mankind, even when fresh out of the tin bath infront of the fire in the scullery; but then there was the savage aftershave, all fresh and masculine.  He recalled the woodbine cigarette held so delicately in that meaty nicotine stained hand.  There was always such warmth about him that belied the harsh working life from which he had so thankfully recently retired.  The chosen photograph from the album, from the sleeping draught for this night, was one of those favourite short visits to The Brown Bear.  Granddad was afforded a couple of hours respite on most Saturday afternoons to go down to the pub and put on a bet.  Sometimes, with fortuitous timing, Martin would be in the right place at the right time, enabling him to tag along and be one of the men for a while.  There was orange juice and peanuts, beer and loud stories; some of them were almost true!  That was a wonderful photograph and sleep washed up over him.
The next morning Martin found himself all too suddenly on the journey again, and large parts of the previous evening had gone missing.  There was no worry in this for him, for how could he become fraught over things he could not remember?
‘This island!’ he mused quietly.  It gave solace yet stole valuable photographs of precious memories.  Each journey was a thief of his life’s baggage.  
He knew full well that one day he would have to become a full time inhabitant on the island of Dementia.

Saturday, 21 January 2017

Mr B, or Barney Boy, the border terrier.  Painted as a gift for a friend. 30"x 30" acrylic on box canvas

Tuesday, 17 May 2016

See my products for sale at my Zazzle store
Latest design is an iPhone cover, using mt 'Fossil Fish' abstract.  See it here

Tuesday, 10 May 2016

I have just started selling on Its a great place to buy original artwork on posters, canvas, clothing and mugs - or just create your own, either customise the products from the art supplied by the artists on zazzle, or make your own posters and canvases from photos.  Great site, hight recommended for artists.

Here is a espresso mug I created in May 2016.

See it in 3 different styles here 

The original artwork is 60"x48" acrylic on canvas;

Friday, 22 April 2016

It's a Picasso thing;
36"x24" acrylic on canvas, April 2016

for sale, in aid of St Richard's Hospice, Worcester UK -
I am a day patient there and paint to raise funds for them, my little thank you to the great staff and volunteers.

Wednesday, 24 February 2016

Cockerel, 90cm x 120cm, acrylic on canvas, February 2016

Friday, 15 January 2016

abstract acrylic on canvas using string texture gel and metallic acrylic paints. 30" x 20"

Monday, 5 October 2015

A recent portrait,
 acrylic on stretched canvas, 20"x 16".  This was painted from a photo shoot session followed by 8 days of painting.

Commissions sought for portraits in figurative form as above, usually in 20"x 30" or 20"x 16" box canvas ready to hang with brackets and twisted picture frame wire.  Average price £350 / $530 plus shipping (worldwide by DHL or similar) or collect in person.
Hello again
this is my latest artwork, one of a series of three, inspired by a photograph of a large wooden carving from a Croatian church.  It is acrylic on canvas board, size is A3 (approx. 12" x 16"), using palette knife, brushes and a sponge.  I think that the mounting and framing really bring out the best of the art work.

For sale at £150 / $225 plus shipping.

I do take commissions with negotiation over the 'look & feel' of the final piece.  If the final art piece doesn't match your expectations for any reason then you are under no obligation to buy.  I am interested in completing some portraits in 2016 so please make contact if you are interested in this.

Saturday, 19 September 2015

Blood stained memories, acrylic on canvas, 30"x 40", September 2015